it aint easy to say goodbye.its takes loads of courage.it hurts so bad.i said goodbye once.and now.u must make me say it to some1 i love so much again.unfair eh.after so much i have to say goodbye.no matter hw much i dun wan.it got to end?must it?.but it just hurt so bad.hw much longer can i hold.1 more year till finally.?u know i aint got patience.yet u wana test me.u know it hurts alot.wat can i do.wat shld i do.maybe 10 yrs later i will say.thanks.or 10 yrs later i will sit in a corner cryin.watchin u holdin some1 hand and walkin into a chruch.i nv do anythin wrong in my life.but u took her away.cant i just have 1.?i dun ask for more.just 1.?e memories and just so hard to let go.even i tell myself she dun need u.but i think i will still be there for her always.even if i try so hard to say goodbye.i still will search high n low for her news.at least knowin she is safe.she is happy.its jus so silly.i made a promise tat i have broken.thing is i dun understand.why cry for some1 u aint love.i dun know whether she have some1 nw.but i make myself belive.i dunno so many things.avoidin aint e solution.but dun think i have any courage left to face anythin.somethings dun need fate to make it happen.theres always some allowance for somethin u could do to change fate eh.i hope.when we were both young neither have e courage to say a thing.i didnt expect u to do anythin even if u have a crush on me.but i lost e chance.cause of my low-selfesteem.den saw u so many freakin times at gay world.haa..all i could do is to sit frm far.and look frm far.and finally dunno hw u get my no. or i got ur no. den everythin started.we were so close.but why must i go away. and let u fade away.haa.if i did not.will u have fade away.will u be with her and suffer so much pain.its all my fault ya.think i dun deserve u.haa.i know i can make u happy.but like e sayin goes.aint able to keep some1 person if u cant keep e heart.e funny thing is.we were so unfated at e start.den end up fated again.haa...wat e hell man..wat is happenin.i also dunno.i really dun understand why u cried.and why u hate me.if u r readin this.pls tell me.i dun wan to lose u.